It was a hot summer day sometime in July; the perfect time to go to the beach and my family had planned to meet some friends for a picnic at the lake.
As we prepared to go out for the afternoon, we made sure everything needed was packed and water bottles were filled. However, some things don’t always go as planned.
You see, this happy, care-free day was about to take an unexpected turn. My parents and sister were out in the kitchen, making last minute adjustments while I was finishing up getting ready.
That’s when I started to feel dizzy and weak. I’m fine. I thought to myself. Just take some deep breaths.
As the feelings increased, I couldn’t stay very calm. “Momma!” I called. “Can you come here?” My mom rushed to me and asked what was wrong.
By this time, I had gotten myself very worked up. I was lightheaded and nauseous. My breathing was quickening, making it difficult to control and my vision was going dark.
My mom, who was trying to calm me down, helped towards the door so that we could go to the ER. However, I couldn’t make it that far.
My legs went completely weak and my mom caught me as passed out and fell to the floor in the kitchen.
I awoke about 10 seconds later to the sound of my dad calling 911, my sister bringing a cool cloth for my forehead and my mom pleading, “Stay with me, Kayla.”
Fortunately, after going to the hospital and getting checked out, I was okay. It was most likely from dehydration, heat, and worry.
Unfortunately, that experience left me with anxiety of many things associated with that day. It’s been almost a year since that scary time, yet I still find myself getting worked up when I feel similar feelings to those I had experienced.
Though it’s been hard for me at times, I’m reminded of what God says, through Paul.
“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:6,7 NKJV).
With the help of my family and the strength of God, I’m learning to trust that the Lord will always help me through the frightful times of my life.
Fear doesn’t have to win.
You see, my experience involved passing out and overcoming anxiety from it, but your experience may be completely different.
Maybe you’ve been rejected time and time again and you live in constant fear that you may never be accepted. Maybe you’ve made some mistakes and you’re afraid of what people would think if they found out.
The fact is, the biggest thing that stops us from overcoming hurtful experiences is fear itself. We’re afraid of the unknown; of what could happen if we really let go and trusted God.
That’s satan’s plan to keep us distanced from the Lord. He wants to fill our heads with lies and doubts. He wants us to question God’s promises so that we never fully surrender. But that won’t get us anywhere.
Just look around. God is working in each of our lives. He loves us so much and wants the best for us. Being held back by fear will only keep us in the same place we’ve always been.
It says in 2 Timothy 1:7 that God has not given us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, love, and of a sound mind. It’s when we give our fear up to God when real change starts happening.
I don’t know what your situation is, but I do know that God doesn’t fail us. Just as I am trusting Him to overcome my anxiety and fears, you can too! That first step is hard, but it’s worth it.
Written by Kayla Marie. Originally published in the Lake Union Herald.