Written By: Marissa Heidinger
I am a person who likes to have my life figured out. I like to understand things, and if I don’t know why something is the way it is, it’s unsettling.
This summer hasn’t been easy for me. I graduated from high school, and in the first few weeks, all my carefully laid plans, all my dreams and hopes for my future were sabotaged.
Needless to say, I was pretty depressed for a few days.
But as everything that could have gone wrong continued to go wrong, I found myself smashed up against panic. Because here was my life—a complete wreck, and I had absolutely no clue how to fix it. I didn’t understand anything that was happening, and it all felt so completely out of control.
It was then that God spoke to me. Trust Me. I’ve got this. You may not understand now, but you will later. That was the hardest thing for me to hear. I wanted to understand now. I wanted to know what was happening and why. But I didn’t get those answers. Instead I heard only a still, small Voice gently urging me to trust His perfect timing.
I wish I could say I chose to trust right away. But my natural instincts to plan my own life, to write my own story, to be in control, kept taking over. I didn’t want to just give it all up into the hands of another!
Finally, on a plane ride across the country, I had plenty of time to think. And as the sun rose over the sphere of earth below, tinting in gold the wings bearing me up in the skies, I finally realized something.
There are times in life when you must simply let go and trust that wherever the Pilot is taking you is the place you most need to be. It’s not always for us to understand or question why.
Sometimes our greatest blessing is to sit back, enjoy the ride, and watch for the rising sun. Because it will always rise again. No matter now dark it seems right now, the sun will always rise again.
I came across this quote by Mother Teresa recently, and it reminded me once again of what I have been learning. She says simply, “I am a pencil in the hand of God.”
It’s not for me to write my own story, to plan my own life in perfect detail. Instead, I am to be as a pencil in the hand of God. I am to wait in perfect submission to His will for my life, and let Him write His story through me. Because the story He has in mind for my life is so much better than anything I could ever write, imagine, or plan out.
So I don’t know what you’re facing right now. But just remember that when your plans, your hopes and dreams for your life seem to be falling apart, God has something beautiful in store for you.
Sometimes good things must fall apart so God can put better things together. If you don’t understand God’s leading, trust the Pilot. He knows where He is taking you.
If your life isn’t t going the way you wanted, try giving yourself to God as pencil, and asking Him to write the story He has in mind for you. And you may not understand it all, but often we miss the blessing because we are too worried about understanding.
Let God surprise you, and challenge yourself to enjoy the ride, counting your blessings along the way.